if i concentrate really hard; if i project my wishes, dreams, desires through thought; the things i really want in myself and in my life, will they come true? can i create my own reality? i think its this simple but you have to be ready.
there's something far greater at work then meets the eye and if your ready to embrace its power its ready for you to enjoy. over the last few months, since my integration in an ashram in india i have started to envision what i want out of life. how i want to feel eachday. the sort of relationships i want to be apart of. how i want to treat others and be treated. how important the wellbeing of my body is and how i take care of my body. the sort of work environment thats healthy for my spirit. my present life. my present self. these last few days have been extrememly important to me. the relationship im presently envisioning to work on is with my sister. we just spent the weekend together in LA; one on one, pure quality bonding, an intimacy which hasnt happened in many years. sure, we've seen on another and hung out (her living in cali makes it a bit tricky), had tele convo's and sent telegrams but as for quality bonding, da nada. before i flew out i started to envision how i wished my sister and i could be. i pictured us laughing and hanging out, going for long walks and eating yummy food. i envisioned us going for a run and sitting by the firplace. my visions came true this weekend and im really thankful. my visions came true because i want this. i am ready to improve, work on, be present in and share myself with my sister. do you have a relationship in your life right now thats not positive? are you committed and care enough, firstly within yourself and secondly towards the other person to envision it improving? if you are, envision how you'd like the relationship to be. i think its super important to come to terms with your differences first and foremost on your own. the other person must be forgiven as does yourself on your own so its safe place to build on. no expectations. simply love. if your going to approach the other with harsh words and aggressive energy ..."you did this....you made me feel this way....i still cant believe you..." forget it. dont even bother. your not ready or willing to go there. your too focused on yourself, who's right and the upper hand. im talking pure forgiveness. pure love. its almost like you pick up from where you left off when you were bestfriends. when you trusted one another completely and would give up the last bite just to see them smile.
a little while back i did some spiritual healing, something i like to do a few times a year. its super intense and risky because you never know how deep deep really is until you surrender to an energy reader. through its practicing i forgave myself for being the little shithead rebel i was to my sister. when i was young i hated being told what to do and unfortunately my sister was left to care for me as mom and dad galivanted around the city and the world. i was wild. im talking dropping acid at 13 while burning down the driveway in dads car; in saying louder then loud music out of dads grammy award winning stereo system with red wine stains on his immaculate carpet; b-t's in the backyard with friends she'd never met. the whole nine yards. where the wild things are. scooby doo where are you. polk a dot door... polkaroo. those actions affected my sister's life in a negative way, i on the other hand was having the time of my life. at that age i didnt know any better but as im growing into my own, reflection shows that time doesnt heal hurt wounds and no matter how much time goes on relationships have no connecyion with time. they lie dormant as time ticks on until you resolve them, until you face them at the core. relationships stay in the exact same spot, with the exact same intensities until someone/ something changes its dimensions. you have to be ready. you have to envision the change and believe in the vision. if your ready, if you want to improve your life, it time you envision how you want your relationships to be; with others and ultimately with yourself.improving your relationships improves your quality of life. there's no better time then now. catch me if you can 0x
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